Is it possible that I write delicately freely without restraint is it possible that I learn English is it possible that I do not know English at all is it possible that I learn and write and compose English with popularity with audience and type them down and get applauses and get corrected automatically and enter an utopia and say good bye to my country and not kn0wing what to expect and let my thought drift away can you fix it or not can you use some big words or not and how can it be consciousness streaming like like streaming online where you can watch films when encroaching others copyright without any guilt or shame or any emotion that is constructed in a real spatial temporal or however people may describe it society where you suffer and suffer a lot where trust or mercifulness is based on mutually assured damage where you can never know your fate goes where love is a frail paper that waits to be burnt any second where you are watching television and advertisements that you create Oh my GOSH you cannot do them simply because you are sitting in a library and doing something that is highly regulated and expected to be finished by your neat and cute society where everyone is trying to keep a slight sense of sanity which is defined by their society and now I need some proof reading and some essential redactions or editing to make myself clear and intelligible so that I can go to shop and refund my clothing without any sense of guilt or any social emotion so that I can see others as a shop assistant instead of a young person who work in a shop so that I can see myself as a client a customer than a confused man who just want to buy something that may camouflage himself from ugliness and discomfort with his shape his future his any inch of skin so that he can waste some time in the comfy chair in the library so that what are you complaining are you weeping but you know maybe it is the world it is the life it is whatever it is it is it is I know what is happening do I can I should I but thankfully I get some pieces of calm now back to work where is my editor anyway oh you should work with me now